sweetnepenthe

zach's playing a show up in steven's point so i'm alone for the night
BUT...
(sound the trumpets!)
we had sex for the first time last night. it was amazing. i mean, really. it's nice to FINALLY be with a guy who likes a little foreplay! he took my breath away.

i'm pretty freaking happy right now. a little impatient waiting for him to get...
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i'm stuck working on what i thought was my day off. stupid sick time crap.
i've been reading up on philosophy, psychology, the effects of psychedelics like LSD, marijuana, etc., and even dabbled in some Law textbooks. it's truly fascinating how the government has managed to regulate and make illegal the use of these substances. more people die every year from alcohol related issues. when...
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he's an alcoholic.
just my fucking luck....

looks like i'm getting interviewed for the internship at Audio For The Arts on either April 1st or 2nd. Wish me luck. I'll need it. Being a chick trying to make it in this industry full of guys isn't going to be easy. If I get this internship it will be a great head start.

this is the first night since sunday that i'll be alone. i miss him already he's in green bay playing a show. i have the feeling that i'm never going to get used to him going out of town to play gigs.

last night me and him got WAY too drunk at a bar. when we woke up this morning we had no idea where...
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it's official. i am no longer single.



p.s. he's in a fucking amazing band. check 'em out if you wanna be cool.

http://erebusband.com/

i really like him.... so zach is headed up to green bay tomorrow to play another metal show, and i might not get to see him for a few days. which really sucks because we have spent the last 5 days together. This will be the first night i have to sleep alone since sunday

i think when he gets back from green bay i'll...
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metal show on st.patty's day was fucking insane. got fucked up in the mosh pit pretty good. ended up hitting my head and passed out. no concussion thank god. as shitty and painful as that was, a lot of good came out of it. this friend of a friend, who was playing in one of the bands that night, pretty much saved me from being...
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internet is back up

my super amazing friend fixed it for me. i think he just might be a god.

i'll be back on later today to message everyone who sent me shit.

p.s. i'm fine

i shouldn't ever get my hopes up.

maybe i ask too much of people....? i don't know. but right now i feel like i'm an annoyance. i fuck up a lot and say stupid things. I know.
i'm going home early. It's only day two of my trip but it's pretty clear to me that it's over. (did it even begin?)

random thought: king size...
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going to get my back tattoo touched up tomorrow after work.
my day is gonna be insane!

Anywho.. i leave friday morning. I'm really fucking nervous, for a lot of reasons. One being my poor car. I'm always worried the engine will just fall right out of it. And meeting people for the first time is always crazy for me. I'm never quite what they...
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