i am such a goddamn fucking screw up.
it's bad enough to have a one might stand with someone who is a really good friend.
it's even worse when you go to a school where you are one of less than 15 girls at a school of 300 guys, and everyone hears about it.
as of december 7th, I've been single for 6 months. and...
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it's bad enough to have a one might stand with someone who is a really good friend.
it's even worse when you go to a school where you are one of less than 15 girls at a school of 300 guys, and everyone hears about it.
as of december 7th, I've been single for 6 months. and...
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i found some inspiration.
in a very dark and honestly scary place.
confronting suppressed memories will hopefully lead to something. i need something, anything. i'm clawing at my mind as desperately as if i were buried alive, clawing my way through a coffin.
i told a little lie.
funny how it turns around and then i find i'm lying to myself to stay alive.
everybody...
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in a very dark and honestly scary place.
confronting suppressed memories will hopefully lead to something. i need something, anything. i'm clawing at my mind as desperately as if i were buried alive, clawing my way through a coffin.
i told a little lie.
funny how it turns around and then i find i'm lying to myself to stay alive.
everybody...
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puff:
hmmm ur boobs are two good reasons to stay i guess
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katya:
thank you sweetheart
thank you again for everyone who reads these ridiculous blogs of mine! i know i don't always reply back, but i really do appreciate it 
hugs for you all. now if only my madison friends were as sweet as my SG friends!!
last night i went to his house again. and drank an entire bottle of Mamertino in half an hour. and i drank half...
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hugs for you all. now if only my madison friends were as sweet as my SG friends!!
last night i went to his house again. and drank an entire bottle of Mamertino in half an hour. and i drank half...
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rookin:
i try and read your posts whenever i can get SG working. which is rare x
cyureus:
Depends... there's so many factors.. but remember... CHOPIN PWNS!!
i decided that i'm giving myself two months. two months to figure out what to do about this relationship stuff. i graduate in less than two months. and i think as soon as i graduate i will be able to make a better decision. and within these two months hopefully i will figure out what i'm really feeling.
i think the biggest issue i have...
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i think the biggest issue i have...
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darthme:
"i think the biggest issue i have right now is the fact that i'm not good enough for him"
don't sell yourself short like that...........
don't sell yourself short like that...........
revolutionary:
You are good enough for just about anyone.
Don't sell yourself short.
Don't sell yourself short.
i don't know what i want. thank you everyone for your comments, and those who even sent me messages. i really appreciate the advice. but i can't sort this out until i figure out what i want. and that may take some time...
all i can think about is this song.
We were one in words
You finished my sentence
I can never attract tomorrow...
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all i can think about is this song.
We were one in words
You finished my sentence
I can never attract tomorrow...
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kirin_ka:
I believe taking time is the best course of action. Good luck in your venture, it will be hard but gratifying.
cyureus:
All there ever seems to be is time. Use what you can.
he makes me happy. makes me not want to get out of bed in the morning because if i do, i'll have to leave his warm embrace.
he holds me close all night, and brushes my hair aside when it gets in my face as i sleep. he pulls the blankets up if i get cold. he lets me sleep with my arm strewn across...
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he holds me close all night, and brushes my hair aside when it gets in my face as i sleep. he pulls the blankets up if i get cold. he lets me sleep with my arm strewn across...
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cyureus:
the first step is to figure out if you really wanna be with him... because if you don't, then theres no point in asking for advice..
kirin_ka:
What happens when this person you like that you don't really know turns out to be something you didn't expect? Why don't you know said person as well as you may like to know them? I would ask if the emotions for both guys feels eternal, but if am going to guess they both do. In my honest opinion I think you should take more time to evaluate the situation before making any commitments. If you wanted to stop serial dating you should try to unfog your mind and remember how you felt when you made that decision.
I MIGHT BE GETTING AN INTERNSHIP!!
...at Audio for the Arts, a recording studio here in Madison. I'm really excited to set up an interview. The owner of the company came to my Business Communications class today to just talk to all of us about how he got into the music industry and what he does, etc. I was really interested because his company specializes...
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...at Audio for the Arts, a recording studio here in Madison. I'm really excited to set up an interview. The owner of the company came to my Business Communications class today to just talk to all of us about how he got into the music industry and what he does, etc. I was really interested because his company specializes...
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the_boss:
Did I ever tell you I love...
cyureus:
Fate maybe? 
Good luck.
Good luck.got an e-mail from my mom this morning. it was an e-mail she sent to me and my sister jennifer. normally i wouldn't post these kinds of things, but this one was so sweet... i love my family
oh and btw my FIRST name is amanda, but i go by my MIDDLE name nichelle. so for those of you wondering who the fuck amanda is,...
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oh and btw my FIRST name is amanda, but i go by my MIDDLE name nichelle. so for those of you wondering who the fuck amanda is,...
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merlina:
cold 
revolutionary:
mmmm maaaanda =)
what a whirlwind of a day.
i'm so thankful for friends. even if i don't talk to them as much as i should, but just knowing they are there is such a comfort.
i'm really sick. i know i act fine. after a few years i realized it's better to put on a semi-healthy facade than to have to explain to everybody what's wrong with...
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i'm so thankful for friends. even if i don't talk to them as much as i should, but just knowing they are there is such a comfort.
i'm really sick. i know i act fine. after a few years i realized it's better to put on a semi-healthy facade than to have to explain to everybody what's wrong with...
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darthme:
oh you are very welcome...i can't help it...youre just WAY WAY WAY adorable.....
lemanstherogue:
Ontario = free healthcare 
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cano94:
fuck yeah best colour! u didnt say the size haha
lusteye:
o.O
pretty lady bra! Don't you have red panties that would match??? Oh and I'm sending you a PM with details of the dream right after this comment okay?
~yes it was steamy.
pretty lady bra! Don't you have red panties that would match???
Oh and I'm sending you a PM with details of the dream right after this comment okay?
~yes it was steamy.
"So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
This one, this form I hold now.
Embracing you, this reality here,
This one, this form I hold now, so
Wide eyed and hopeful.
Wide eyed and hopefully wild.
We barely remember what came before this precious moment,
Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside...
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in...
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This one, this form I hold now.
Embracing you, this reality here,
This one, this form I hold now, so
Wide eyed and hopeful.
Wide eyed and hopefully wild.
We barely remember what came before this precious moment,
Choosing to be here right now. Hold on, stay inside...
This body holding me, reminding me that I am not alone in...
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revolutionary:
omg. <3
me and my sister might do a duet. she suggested the song "Changes"
call me an idiot but I don't remember if Ozzy did that song with Black Sabbath or just by himself... anybody know?
either way, she wants to do that song. I think it would be fun Me and her used to sing together all the time. I even remember back in the...
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call me an idiot but I don't remember if Ozzy did that song with Black Sabbath or just by himself... anybody know?
either way, she wants to do that song. I think it would be fun
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cyureus:
haha, you're a goob. take care out there tonight.
Thanks for all the comments love, they did cheer me up. The ER really didn't know what is really wrong.. (figures) However, I'll be up in Wis Jan 5- Jan 13th I can't wait to be near snow and all my old friends again. I miss you a lot. I love you