Perhaps my biggest mistake is that I'm waiting for something to make everything "okay" when it could just be okay now. Like, for example, "I'll be okay with myself if I just lose a few more pounds" or "I'll like my life if I just get a better paying job" when it's all just in your mind anyway. Truth is, if I lose all the weight i want to right now sitting here as I type this, I'll still find something about myself to dislke. It was just a thought I got looking in the mirror today at work. I was standing there, poking at my side and thinking, god maybe I'd be beautiful if I just lost some weight...then it hit me. Why can't I be beautiful now? Sure, I'm not typically hot, and I don't see myself as hot at all, nor do I think I ever will, but I'm not naive enough to think seriously that shedding 30 pounds will make my life better. It won't make me a better person.
It's weird because you're told this shit all your life, but untli it clicks in your head? You really don't get it or buy into it.
I'm nowhere close to "getting" it yet, but I think today I got a little closer.
Turning a year older will do that to you, usually. Turning 26 on monday. I really thought I'd feel (and be) more grown up by now you know?
It's weird because you're told this shit all your life, but untli it clicks in your head? You really don't get it or buy into it.
I'm nowhere close to "getting" it yet, but I think today I got a little closer.
Turning a year older will do that to you, usually. Turning 26 on monday. I really thought I'd feel (and be) more grown up by now you know?
Still though, I'm in a better position now than I was a few years ago, so maybe all the little things add up.
You're beautiful though. Stop worrying about it!