i mostly like who i have become
but the 18 year old anarchist punk in me is pretty disappointed
by the lack of revolution
and really cannot understand why there isn't more sexy sex
in his life
that skinny punk was very popular, promiscuous, poly and perverse
and not much into self preservation
or so it seemed
but life has turned out to be longer and less complicated than he expected
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And I liked to party with lots of sexy ladies.
I put my bets down on Evolution, personally and societally.
I also figured I would meet my very ownTantrick priestess, if I kept to my Work, and the sex would be resplendent and transcendent.
None of this has really materialized, as of yet.
Nothing I have going on now is really awful, either, and some of it is quite fine. But my younger Freaky Self accuses me sometimes that I lowered my sights, toned down the Vision, and settled for less. And he's right.
So I think I know what you're talking about. I don't know what to tell that younger self, except that I'm still working, and trying to follow my own lights, however dimmed by time and age and compromise. And that it's not over yet.
You never know, really....