i'm hungover, bored and smelly. and i saw chopper last night for about two seconds, he looked fucking hot, kissed me on the cheek and gave me my bracelets back. and then he left without saying anything. what's up with that?
went to a club on friday, got lost whilst trying to find the toilets, bumped in to someone i sort of know, got wasted and can't remember much after that. i think i kissed someone.
woke up on saturday feeling aweful, after two hours of sitting down, breathing and drinking coffee i managed to stumble in to the shower and get dressed. as i was putting my shoes on i recieved an unexpected text that made my stomache go mental, in a nice way. bought some pants in town, went home, had some food and walked over to my mates house. tried to drink past the hangover but after a bottle of fizz and two glasses of wine i was still feeling rough as fuck. went to a pink party, had a pint of guiness, got really drunk all of a sudden so i had some water. got kissed on the cheek and ate some food. i didn't last past twelve and it made me feel old.
i want to text him today but can't be arsed with the waiting for him to reply bit. he's just so unbelievably hot. i don't think i've ever desired a man like i desire him. it makes me feel excited and calm at the same time and now there's a storm inside my head and i need to sort my flat out but being here for longer than half an hour makes me panic.
i can't believe it's monday tomorrow.
went to a club on friday, got lost whilst trying to find the toilets, bumped in to someone i sort of know, got wasted and can't remember much after that. i think i kissed someone.
woke up on saturday feeling aweful, after two hours of sitting down, breathing and drinking coffee i managed to stumble in to the shower and get dressed. as i was putting my shoes on i recieved an unexpected text that made my stomache go mental, in a nice way. bought some pants in town, went home, had some food and walked over to my mates house. tried to drink past the hangover but after a bottle of fizz and two glasses of wine i was still feeling rough as fuck. went to a pink party, had a pint of guiness, got really drunk all of a sudden so i had some water. got kissed on the cheek and ate some food. i didn't last past twelve and it made me feel old.
i want to text him today but can't be arsed with the waiting for him to reply bit. he's just so unbelievably hot. i don't think i've ever desired a man like i desire him. it makes me feel excited and calm at the same time and now there's a storm inside my head and i need to sort my flat out but being here for longer than half an hour makes me panic.
i can't believe it's monday tomorrow.
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Work is good! I got the job in Waterstones, and it's been pretty good. The people are mostly really nice, it's pretty well paid, I love working with books lol, I keep seeing things I want or that I want to buy for other people.
Things are alright really, still very up and down with the man. He came for the weekend and it was great, like before, amazing. I love being with him so much, and when we're together he seems to really love being with me. And then comes the down, when he gets his depressed days etc. At the moment I'm taking those days in my stride, you could say, just talking to him etc, and then he's a lot better the next day. Meh. He has a job interview in London on Thurday, so he's coming here Wednesday, then staying as long as he can. He's even been talking about us living together next year, looking for places in Wycombe to buy so he can commute if he gets the job. This all seems so positive, but then he goes off on his little badness cycle. Good grief, how'd I fall for a complete head mental? Tut! No work today so I'm going shopping and then watching the rugby
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