suziq

god bless the l word.
i really wish the sun would come out. come on, pretty please? at least for the weekend, i don't want to go to ashton court if it's raining. found a 10 note in my pocket today so i bought a pint for my manager, sort of nice but we were mostly sat there not talking like we ususally do. i really don't know why it's so hard to talk to him sometimes. it's like my head just goes blank. literally. i can't think of anything to say whatsoever and it's so frustrating 'cause i think we have a lot in common and would get along so well if i could just loosen up a little. it does my head in.

i was working in the little cafe in the little bookshop today and all day yesterday. today i gave in at two because i was about to cry. i think i had a total of maybe twenty customers yesterday and since i am on my on i can't use the loo, i can't restock, i can't do anything i have no one to talk to and no music and it drives me insane.

and tomorrow i'm doing another lovely double + deep clean and a staff party at vodka revolution. woopie. i think i'm allergic to vodka. i go mental when i drink it. i'm gonna crawl into bed with my man now. nighty night.