wow, my birthday is over! I am old. Not completely old but old. And everyone who has already turned 30 knows what i mean and what I am feeling.
I am so fucking drunk right now! This is probably the most real journal entry I will right and I say fuck it. No holding back this was probably one of the top 10 worst b-day's of my life! What do I expect this is Iowa. The two fucking clubs we have here are lame ass and what do I expect. I go there while my boy goes to another bar to play poker.
So all goes well until some 21 girl starts fucking with my best friend. So I'm trashed and she starts fucking with me. So what the hell? 3 of her friends step in between us cuz i'm nose to nose with her and then she pushes me. tellin me i'm old.. Ouch... but tuff me just laughs.... and covers my mouth like oh my... she has tears in her eyes so I say what are you going to do. are you going to cry. then more of her friends step in and all of the sudden she's gone.
so I look for my bf and she's way behind me and pulls me to dance. well i'm all worked up .. and wounded cuz now I fucking feel way to old to be at this lame ass club anyway. and my girl tells me the girls was standing behing me fucking with me. which is why she started the fight ? WTf??? ughhhhhhh
ok-- shake it off. I'm being stupid getting into a fight with a 21 year old girl in a bar. Just what dont push me when you have three friends between you!! So know I'm mad .. but I go to the bath room and some girl tells me I remind her of bettie page (WTF)?? but thanks great complipment. But I just want to find my boy and be made love to.
go to the bar he's at. he's playing poker. finishes another 3 hands. drive my girl home drive home. he's puking. passes out. I'm alone this all sucks.== worst birthday in a long time.
next year I'm renting a movie. getting a toy and staying in. No fucking hassles. no fucking worries. all around good times.
lessons learned. my hometown bars suck. I am old. and nobody can love you like youself!!
aghh enough whinning about my awfull night. things can only get better. I need to stop going to stupid small town clubs/ and recognize that I am special without the validation of someone wanting to fuck me passionately on my birthday.
Ok no more being sad.. today is over. I am going to bed .............
I am so fucking drunk right now! This is probably the most real journal entry I will right and I say fuck it. No holding back this was probably one of the top 10 worst b-day's of my life! What do I expect this is Iowa. The two fucking clubs we have here are lame ass and what do I expect. I go there while my boy goes to another bar to play poker.
So all goes well until some 21 girl starts fucking with my best friend. So I'm trashed and she starts fucking with me. So what the hell? 3 of her friends step in between us cuz i'm nose to nose with her and then she pushes me. tellin me i'm old.. Ouch... but tuff me just laughs.... and covers my mouth like oh my... she has tears in her eyes so I say what are you going to do. are you going to cry. then more of her friends step in and all of the sudden she's gone.
so I look for my bf and she's way behind me and pulls me to dance. well i'm all worked up .. and wounded cuz now I fucking feel way to old to be at this lame ass club anyway. and my girl tells me the girls was standing behing me fucking with me. which is why she started the fight ? WTf??? ughhhhhhh
ok-- shake it off. I'm being stupid getting into a fight with a 21 year old girl in a bar. Just what dont push me when you have three friends between you!! So know I'm mad .. but I go to the bath room and some girl tells me I remind her of bettie page (WTF)?? but thanks great complipment. But I just want to find my boy and be made love to.
go to the bar he's at. he's playing poker. finishes another 3 hands. drive my girl home drive home. he's puking. passes out. I'm alone this all sucks.== worst birthday in a long time.
next year I'm renting a movie. getting a toy and staying in. No fucking hassles. no fucking worries. all around good times.
lessons learned. my hometown bars suck. I am old. and nobody can love you like youself!!
aghh enough whinning about my awfull night. things can only get better. I need to stop going to stupid small town clubs/ and recognize that I am special without the validation of someone wanting to fuck me passionately on my birthday.
Ok no more being sad.. today is over. I am going to bed .............
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