suspiciousmind

Wow, the last couple of months have gone by in a bit of a blur. I haven't really felt like myself or been paying attention to much thats happened.

I don't like that so much of me has changed because of him.

I don't really talk much about this to anyone. I'm really one of those people that can only deal with things if I keep it to myself. Throw all of the puzzle pieces onto the floor and try to sort them out myself. Only this time, those puzzle pieces were my heart.

I don't feel that I have done that though. Sorted everything out and put it all back together. I still feel like Im standing amid all the shattered pieces and kind of looking around - not knowing where to start.

I wish I could get it all back together. I wish that I had never met him. Never known how truly happy one person can make me. Because its all so easily taken away. Not even for a specific reason - just because he wanted to.

Well - I guess I'll have to pick up all of those pieces, throw them into my purse, along with some glue, and keep on trucking. Maybe one day, I'll find the time, the place, and the hope, that I can put it back together.


xoxo