sushii

My uncle is in the ICU, he had an abdominal aortic aneurysm that ruptured last Friday night. So far I have been pretty optimistic because he pulled through the first four surgeries. But my Mother called me tonight and told me to start thinking about if I have to come home in the near future for a few days for a funeral and stuff. Up to this point I have been really good, but now I can't stop crying and thinking about loosing my Uncle Doug. I just think of having a family gathering and him not being there, and what a huge hole that would be. I haven't lost anyone really close to me since I was six and my Grandfather died - which is so fortunate and amazing.... How do you say goodbye to someone forever? Because I can't even think about it without breaking down.