So, I am single again. After two and a half years of being in a relationship with someone and living together. It is le over. I left him over skype. Which isn't the best way to leave someone, but he best I could manage being in Africa and all. He took it pretty badly at first, but it could have been worse. I told him I was being honest about my feelings and up-front instead of being a bit of a liar and keeping how I felt to myself and pretending to love him in ways that I do not.
I guess that after seeing my friend and her boyfriend at home I really realized the difference. She missed her boyfriend all the time, talked about him a lot, and wanted to talk/write to him a lot. But I had none of those feelings towards Alex. So, I felt it was best to end it. When I ended the relationship it really testified to the need for us to separate. While he was very upset and crying, I only felt bad that I was hurting him - I didn't feel sorry for not being with him anymore or miss him.
Things that suck about it... He doesn't feel that he can live in the same house as me anymore, so he is going to move out. Which leaves housing a bit of a mess when I return. Also, he won't take care of the guinea pig anymore, so I need to try to find someone to take care of him. And finally, I lose all of my X-Box games and my game saves. Balls.
Anyway, that is what is on my mind right now. Worried a bit about stuff at home. But tonight we are having a huge pot luck at our house.... assuming the power comes back on and we can actually cook stuff.... BOO! Hahhaa. I can't wait to return to Nykhata bay, where it is beautiful and luscious and the power stays on!!! Two girls we met in the bay are here, they fly out tomorrow to return home to South Africa. So, we are eating then heading out to THE SHACK! For a few drinks! Hhahaa. Nice, after spending over 7 hours in a hospital with my ill friend watching the care (it was terrifying - think of dropping a needle on the floor then picking it up to continue to use it to administer IV meds... Or getting a full out IV of >200 drops/min of refridgerated Ringers Lactate... WHY would you even refridgerate it?!
Anyway! I still need to write about the bay and its wonders! And working in the nursery school there! And maybe elaborate on the hospital adventure!
Will return......
I guess that after seeing my friend and her boyfriend at home I really realized the difference. She missed her boyfriend all the time, talked about him a lot, and wanted to talk/write to him a lot. But I had none of those feelings towards Alex. So, I felt it was best to end it. When I ended the relationship it really testified to the need for us to separate. While he was very upset and crying, I only felt bad that I was hurting him - I didn't feel sorry for not being with him anymore or miss him.
Things that suck about it... He doesn't feel that he can live in the same house as me anymore, so he is going to move out. Which leaves housing a bit of a mess when I return. Also, he won't take care of the guinea pig anymore, so I need to try to find someone to take care of him. And finally, I lose all of my X-Box games and my game saves. Balls.
Anyway, that is what is on my mind right now. Worried a bit about stuff at home. But tonight we are having a huge pot luck at our house.... assuming the power comes back on and we can actually cook stuff.... BOO! Hahhaa. I can't wait to return to Nykhata bay, where it is beautiful and luscious and the power stays on!!! Two girls we met in the bay are here, they fly out tomorrow to return home to South Africa. So, we are eating then heading out to THE SHACK! For a few drinks! Hhahaa. Nice, after spending over 7 hours in a hospital with my ill friend watching the care (it was terrifying - think of dropping a needle on the floor then picking it up to continue to use it to administer IV meds... Or getting a full out IV of >200 drops/min of refridgerated Ringers Lactate... WHY would you even refridgerate it?!
Anyway! I still need to write about the bay and its wonders! And working in the nursery school there! And maybe elaborate on the hospital adventure!
Will return......
insomnaniac:
Hey, sorry to hear about your relationship ending... It's funny how being away and doing new things can sometimes give you a fresh perspective on things. Definitely keep the posts coming, they're definitely entertaining