susannahjoy

i'm sick. not even on purpose this time!

yeah so apparently his idea of spending the weekend with me is having a bbq that i cant go to with katie. great. i feel so fucking special. asshole.

i think i'm gonna go throw up again.

he's with katie now. again. as always. i mean, really, what does it matter if i'm sick? why the fuck...
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i hate "enhanced" cds. they are obnoxious. so now, instead of listening to my new cd, i have to wait for it to download all the software first, then i have to use their player, i cant use my own. it's bullshit. grrs!! i just want to listen to some music!!

and i'm still upset from last night, which is a bad sign. shouldn't i...
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i so cannot handle this. what am i going to do??

i have decided that i do not like working two jobs at once. but i like getting paid for working two jobs at once. luckily, by the time i leave big 5 (last day is on the 22nd) i will be serving at og, so i'll be making the same for half the work. awesome.

*yawn* nothing like porn first thing in the morning! or at least, first thing when i get up. it's not really early morning anymore.

anyway.

yesterday me and colin and my sister and her baby went shopping and then played monopoly. poor colin, we probably spent about an hour and a half looking at baby clothes. he kept insisting that he was fine though, he...
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i'm lonely and depressed and drunk cuz i was too lonely and depressed. tomorrow i'm hanging out with colin, which is nice i guess, except that for the last coupel of nights he's been with katie, and oh yes, next weekend, they are going SAILING together. what the fuck? that's so not fair. how am i supposed to compete with a girl who has motorcycles,...
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i'm watching a movie about killer ants in alaska. it's awseome. i may have to go buy it. yup.

umm... yes.

i need to find out what's going on tonight. i'm afraid that katie will already have colin, but whatever, i can make other plans with teresa or amber. hopefully. if i cant then i'm going to go up to tehachapi. i need to pick...
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oh man, i am so horny. dammit colin! i need you!! grrs. i suppose i can always just take care of myself, but it's way more fun with someone else. *sigh*

so how are you all? i'm pretty good. ryan took me out to dinner tonight. he's very sweet. i'm taking him out next week so it'll be all fair. it's too bad he doesnt...
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today was fun. i spent the night at colin's house last night (he was very drunk and passed out by the time the alcohol i drank started to make me feel happy, which was annoying) then woke up with him this morning, then we hung out with my sister and nephew for a bit, then we went hiking with my brother and his girlfriend's dog...
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ok so yeah i'm a slob. i'm cleaning out my car. i grabbed a couple grocery bags for trash, filled those up, and found a half empty on in there already that i filled up and threw out; i've made 4 trips back and forth from my apartment bringin in all kinds of random shit (lots of books, some stickers, a stomp pad, school stuff,...
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