i have decided to name my fish. right now i cant tell if they're male or female, or even what kind of fish they are, but for the time being i'm assuming they are all female and naming the maggy, milly, molly, and may after one of the few poems that i actually like. 
way too much drama last night. i was hanging out with andrew and all his buddies, but he was being an ass (unintentionally, but still). he was only paying attention to me when we were alone. the rest of the time (at his apartment, at the party we went to, at denny's) he hardly spoke a word to me and had his back to me most of the time. it was making the other people feel uncomfortable too. they were all trying to talk to me, but it was sorta hard cuz it was like 20 of them who all knew each other and then me, who didnt kno wanyone, except for andrew of course, but he was off talking to the only other straight person there. grrs.
i have decided that i quite enjoy going to parties that are almost excusively gay guys though. lol.
oh, duh, how could i forget this part about andrew?
so, we're back at his apartment at like 3am, after we left everyone (they were all going to some field somewhere for some gay orgy. really. i didnt know people actually did things like that.... hmm) and he was flirting, touching my hands and my face and all that and i asked him if he actually even liked me. his response was "yes! you're definetly starting to grow on me!" to which i said "wow! that's about the worst answer you could've given!" so then he tries to explain himself by saying "well, at first i didnt know quite what to make of you because you didnt fit into my ideas of what a girl should be like, but as i'm hanging out with you more i'm starting to like you more and realizing that i cant just hold out for this idea of perfection." oh my god. the thing is, i think he was actually trying to be nice, he just so doesnt get girls or how to talk to them. so at the point i said that i'd better just leave and we shouldnt continue this conversation, because if we did i'm sure i would've started crying. *sigh* stupid fucking boys!!!
my mommy is supposed to be here soon. i should probably get off this site. although they have all seen my calender, and my desktop (it's elara)... they probably think i'm really a lesbian or somethign. i'm not. well, i dont think i am. maybe? fuck i dunno. i'm tired. need more coffee. thank god for coffee.
way too much drama last night. i was hanging out with andrew and all his buddies, but he was being an ass (unintentionally, but still). he was only paying attention to me when we were alone. the rest of the time (at his apartment, at the party we went to, at denny's) he hardly spoke a word to me and had his back to me most of the time. it was making the other people feel uncomfortable too. they were all trying to talk to me, but it was sorta hard cuz it was like 20 of them who all knew each other and then me, who didnt kno wanyone, except for andrew of course, but he was off talking to the only other straight person there. grrs.
i have decided that i quite enjoy going to parties that are almost excusively gay guys though. lol.
oh, duh, how could i forget this part about andrew?
so, we're back at his apartment at like 3am, after we left everyone (they were all going to some field somewhere for some gay orgy. really. i didnt know people actually did things like that.... hmm) and he was flirting, touching my hands and my face and all that and i asked him if he actually even liked me. his response was "yes! you're definetly starting to grow on me!" to which i said "wow! that's about the worst answer you could've given!" so then he tries to explain himself by saying "well, at first i didnt know quite what to make of you because you didnt fit into my ideas of what a girl should be like, but as i'm hanging out with you more i'm starting to like you more and realizing that i cant just hold out for this idea of perfection." oh my god. the thing is, i think he was actually trying to be nice, he just so doesnt get girls or how to talk to them. so at the point i said that i'd better just leave and we shouldnt continue this conversation, because if we did i'm sure i would've started crying. *sigh* stupid fucking boys!!!
my mommy is supposed to be here soon. i should probably get off this site. although they have all seen my calender, and my desktop (it's elara)... they probably think i'm really a lesbian or somethign. i'm not. well, i dont think i am. maybe? fuck i dunno. i'm tired. need more coffee. thank god for coffee.
good luck with ur guy um yea