susannahjoy

so yeah. i think i need to break it off with colin. i'm just realyl tired of the mixed messages and lying and everything else that he does. i complained that i never get to see him during the weekends cuz he's always with her, so he says "ok, well i have the next weekend completely off, which isnt going to happen again until after jan. so we should totally spend some time together. i realyl want to get to hang otu with you. you should plan something fun for us to do! oh hey, want to come over next sunday? i'm having a bbq with katie." WTF?!?!??!?!?!? i am soooo mad. his idea of spending time with me is apparently letting me tag along to events that he's already planned with her. so i called him earlier and told him that i need to see him tonight. he said that'd work cuz he doesnt have any other plans or anything, so great. i'm going to go over there and have a nice little chat. i dont know how it'll go, but i'm sure i'll be coming home upset. whatever. the past few days i've been so mad at him that i cant sleep and am now actually sick from it. throwing up and everything. something needs to change.