susannahjoy

i hate "enhanced" cds. they are obnoxious. so now, instead of listening to my new cd, i have to wait for it to download all the software first, then i have to use their player, i cant use my own. it's bullshit. grrs!! i just want to listen to some music!!

and i'm still upset from last night, which is a bad sign. shouldn't i be over this by now? or at least, not as upset by it? i need to tell him that i cant sleep with him anymore. that's going to go real well i'm sure. ugh. tonight his ex is coming up and they're going to go clubbing. he invited me, but i have work and i dont think i'd want to go anyway. i hate that we never hang out on weekends. weekends he's always with katie or one of their friends. we were supposed to go minature golfing the other day, but i couldn't. so instead he took her. for some reason that bothers me even more than the fact that last night they went up to her family's cabin. i dont know what i'm doing with him. i just want someone who actually likes me.

fuck it, i'm just going to take my drugs and not worry about it for awhle.