susan_

With dumb people and their shit.



With people making assessments of me after meeting me 5 minutes, talking shit to their friend which ends up helping to tell my bf to break up with me.




I am tired of guys thinking they can use me. You either want me or you don't. And it's just me. Not me, with some Emmy, and maybe some Rachel on the side or whatever.



I am tired of being walked all over.




I am tired of my things begin taken away and me not having any control.




I am tired of my friends ignoring me.




I am tired of feeling like I am going to throw up every 5 minutes.




I wish I could eat more then 3 bites of something and then feeling full.




I am tired of everything.




Here comes mental breakdown number 2 of the night.




Don't even bother.
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And on that note....

So I pretty much fucked up one of the best things I've had going in my life for awhile now with my word vomit. He's the one who just walked out on me though...


So I start my new job next week, I get a whopping 11 hours.



The following week I leave for Tennessee.




I get my car back by the 25th.




I haven't eaten more then 3 bites of something since probably Tuesday of last week.




I didn't sleep last night.




I probably won't have enough money to keep my cell phone.




And I think I want to chop all my hair off.





I say if the futures been drawn out there's no point in living.
I wont give up my love so that fate can have its way.

If the stars say that you couldn't love me,
Are you telling me that you would listen?
If the words make their way from your mouth,
Don't ask my permission,
All is forgiven.

Star crossed lovers, we do what we want to.

Some learn the hard way,
We all learn through consequence.