surreal78

What a stress filled week. While over at a freinds house on Sunday, we talked of work. This dude hasn't held a job in years. He asked me what I felt was the worst part about my job. I told him to imagine a gym floor. Take a 4 inch scrapper and scrape 9 hours a day for a week... So happens I got sent on a huge vinyl job. I've scraped old cut-back for 3 days now. Finally got the prep done. I have blisters and bruises on my hands. Man I feel like shit. My whole body is acheing.

Think I need to take a break from the smoke. Just a couple of months or more. It may be hard to stop cause I have the hookup and love the high, but me lungs are screaming to me to stop. I got a buddie who is starting his project so some day I won't have to pay out. I heard green is priced higher than gold per oz. That is crazy to me. We shouldn't need to pay for such a great product.

I feel I am starting a change in my perspective. It's not like there is anything stirring inside to make this change apparent. I just know and feel that I am. Is it for the good? I can't really say. I recently listen to a casette tape of a speaker who calls himself SETH. The seth tape. All the Knowledge you wish to understand is lock inside of our mind. There is no text to change what is locked inside of ourselves. I'd like to reach deep in and see the real truth of my life. I have yet to find the reason why I am who I am. Been slippin into the Dark side. So bright my light the dark is still my being and in no shouldn't bring happyness if corrected with true shine and heart blessed love. Now I'm just talking out of my ass. Think it's time to..............