supersudz

i have, through the years collected a variety of exes. a handful of them happen to be batshit insane.

there was the ex who carved the words "i'm sorry" into her arm after we got into an argument.

or the ex who repeatedly showed up at my work to bring me roses and beg for me to take her back, who wrote songs(terrible ones) to serenade me and who even started stalking my friends after i got a restraining order against her.

or the ex who beat the living tar out of one of my friends who he mistakenly took for my new boyfriend.

but none of those psychos compare to pat. pat has shown me what a truly insane person looks like.

this morning i got a message from my ex simply reading "i win!" i had no idea what that meant until three o'clock this afternoon.

apparently my ex, pat, who i broke up with over a year ago and who moved to Michigan, managed to woo my best friend's girlfriend and convince her to run away with him.

thing is, he doesn't like her. he thinks shes annoying and talks a lot of shit about her.

the entire reason he broke up their relationship was to fuck with me. who does that? i dumped him over a year ago and he has yet to date anyone else and has repeatedly tried to insert himself back into my life.

initially he was trying to get back with me, then he switched to vengeance. apparently me leaving him and moving on with my life was a horrible thing for me to do and i have to pay for it.

he threatened to stab my mother, he tried to burn down my family's house. and four months ago he told me he was going to sleep with Bethany, my best friends g/f. and last night he accomplished it.

he lives two fucking states away and yet he still wants to fuck around with my life.

he makes me soo angry. i try so hard not to care. but he goes just so far over the line.

and there is nothing i can do about it. he is going ridiculously out of his way to hurt me and i have done nothing.

i have not informed authorities about his various drug trafficking endeavors. i have not spoken to his friends about the various things i know that could damage him. i have tried my best to completely avoid him.

...but i think this was the last straw. i can't take it anymore.

so, i'm asking this, how awful of me would it be to release a video i have from when we were still together of me fucking him in the ass with an enormous black strap on? **bonus** he's in pigtails and wearing my bra

i was only thinking of sending it to a handful of his close friends, relatives and coworkers.

i really think he might contemplate suicide for a bit if i send it. he acts like this big macho man all the time and talks a lot of shit. having this get out would be a huge blow to his ego.

...but i'll kind of need encouragement to actually do this because i'm not really a vindictive person. even after everything he has done i can't bring myself to expose him like that unless perhaps i can share the guilt of it with a few blog readers.

so, opinions?