superstarcsb

So...for the past while, I've been acting like I've had a girlfriend. I haven't been flirting with anyone, I haven't really been talking to any females online, I haven't done anything with anyone else. But I did it all for nothing. I wanted to impress Jaimie, but as I had feared she has given up on me. I wanted to spoil her and give her kisses randomly and hug her when she's down and talk to her...and I guess she doesn't want that. Instead she wants to toy with some other boy that won't give her kisses when she could be having a real relationship with someone that truly cares for her. You can ask people at work. They all know I love her to pieces. You can ask any girl I've talked to online. It may make them mad, but they all know that I love Jaimie to death. Everyone knows, and some have been nice enough to cheer me on, but sadly, it looks like the game is over...and I have lost. Thus proving my theory that I will die alone and unwanted. She was all I wanted, and without her I am nothing.

I will still talk about her, and I will still give her things even though she doesn't want anything. I don't care. This is how I feel and I can't just change the way I feel. That's all for now...