superscott

pretty sure i'm loosing it.


the stress of not knowing what the doctor is going to say is taking an emotional toll on me that i've never quite experienced before (when my mom had cancer it was kinda like this just about half as bad).


i've been listening to The Bravery - Time Wont Let Me Go for the past like five hours over and over.

i think there is a fine line between regret and wanting to have done things differently.
everybody makes mistakes and some of them are good mistakes and some are not.

i think everybody could agree the bad mistakes you'd do over again.


i've been going over in my mind things i'd redo and stuff i wouldnt and thinking about whats going to happen in the next week or so. i'm pretty sure you can overthink your lot in life and i'm at that point. i feel helpless because there is nothing i can physically do to change whatever is wrong with me medically.

but yeah.


/emo