supernova72

once again, i hit a brick wall.

I'm starting to feel particularly unspecial. but i do it to myself. at least that much I am aware of.

spent another day crying. nothing more pathetic than sitting in your car at lunchtime sobbing while people walk by and you have all the windows up and the air conditioner on so they can't hear you weeping.

I just found out that I am undateable. which is out of respect to the ex and whatnot. well, whatever. he dumped me. he made me go. he didn't like me anymore.

but still.

it hurts. to be dumped and then be undateable.

want to roll up in bed and sleep for a couple of weeks.

but i will probably go out with my friend. tomorrow is gay date night for girls. I usually spend thursdays with my friend after she gets done with work. i'm sure getting out of the stupid hick hometown will be good for me. i doubt we will be partying stumbling distance from my house as usual. so we'll be in a different city. new people. not a bunch of people i know from somewhere in my hometown.

kind of depressed. at least the drama of being called a whore is over. got that all talked out last night and had a real nice conversation with a couple of guy friends.

still kind of sad.