supermanfxk

Smoking.

I grew up with parents who smoked. My whole family for the most part are/were smokers. You would think that it would be something that I would either do myself or at least be accepting of, but it's not. I find it absolutely repulsive. So much so that I refuse to socialize with smokers. The worst is when I meet a woman that I'm attracted to and then I see her smoking. It's amazing how quickly attraction turns to absolute loathing and disgust. I'm pretty sure it's on a subconcious level at this point. I find it hard to muster any sort of respect for people that smoke and I won't speak to them or entertain anything they have to say. This all seems fine since I live in Ohio I don't have to deal with them when I go out. I just avoid the smoking areas and all is well. The hard part is that my father persists in this filthy habit and I'm getting to the point where I can't stand to be around him, which is unfortunate because he's actually pretty awesome and I love to hang out with him.....and I find him disgusting and unbearable because of his habit. My, my brothers and even my step mother have been on him to quit for years and he always just says "I know, I'm trying." I'm not sure how to proceed...I don't want to stop seeing him, but I can't tolerate his selfish, disgusting habit any more.

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