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I lose.

That sad smiley isn't sad enough.

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I am sadder than sad. They need words for that. I could post a lot of 's, but that feels so inadequate. The girl that I was caring about just told me she's hooking back up with an ex-. This was the first girl I'd really been excited about since Tanya. And I think she was cooler than Tanya. (long time readers of my journal know what I'm saying here).

So, yeah. I think alcohol and not work or socializing are in order. Maybe I'll be alive and awake tomorrow. Maybe.

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Boys: The second stupidest gender there is.

I'm so dumb. I actually thought I stood a chance this time. But, well, NO. I really didn't. And the last one featured me holding a knife to my throat, so I don't know what the hell's gonna happen this time. But I really don't know how much longer I can keep trying at this. It hurts, every time.