Wednesday Oct 15, 2003

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today was a good day...

really. the shit that happened today, was outweighed by the good...

that hasn't happened to me in awhile.

i don't even feel the need to vent about the couple bad things that happened. they don't even matter today. smile

shit, i haven't felt like this in a long time.
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rawdon:
smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile smile
theres a few extra there for ya in case you wanna save some for later, if you run out just give me a shout and ill send you some more wink
jora:
Yay! I knew you'd feel happiness again. I'm glad that it happened sooner rather than later.

*Big huge happy hugs to you*

Tuesday Oct 14, 2003

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i wish i could stop feeling like the world is out to get me...

stupid little things. all the time.

stupid temp. agency calls me like 2-3 times a day... and tells me something different each time... i'm starting to feel like they have no idea what they're doing.

cancelled the job for yesterday. ok.
called me in the morning today, to check if i...
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drunkpunk:
Sorry to hear you're going through more shit dude. I hope things turn out for the best for ya biggrin
And thanks too for my birthday wishes!

P.S. You should have heard the volume at which i shouted "Fuck you, World" out of my window for you. It was quite impressive!
audio:
ok, i'm starting to feel normal again. now that the wait is over. you never gave me the address of the temp lady...hahahahmuahhahaha

wink

Monday Oct 13, 2003

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well today i got a call from the temp. agency...

it seems that the woman forgot that the place was closing early tonight 'cause of the stupid holiday... so, i have the day completely off... i am working 9-4:30 the rest of the week at my first job and as soon as i get out of that one i'm going to the temp. job right...
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brandviolet:
Play, pleasures, mirth and worldy joys,
Be done with these and heed them not:
Aloof from pomp and speaking truth,
Fare lonely as rhinoceros

Or, alternatively, go out and have a great time.

Somehow I'm not sure if that helps, but I like your journal.
csilla:
i wish i could help you figure it out. but you will. i am still at my sisters college but when i get back i will talk to you lots smile

just hang in there cutie kiss

Sunday Oct 12, 2003

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Brand New - The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows

We saw the western coast.
I saw the hospital.
Nursed the shoreline like a wound.
Reports of lover's trysts.
Were neither clear nor descript.
We kept it safe and slow.
The quiet things that no one ever knows.

Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground.
Today's the day...
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mamabunny:
hey you-

journal update dear

hehe

silly me silly me

philly tree philly tree

really tea? really tea?

haha

uhgottago

Linds
runholden:
I can't seem to get away fro the White Stripes lately. The musical goodness makes me feel all warm inside

Saturday Oct 11, 2003

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last night was my first temp. job... it wasn't horrible, but it wasn't what they told me it was gonna be... i ended up being a "runner" for the credit department for a new store opening... and what i had to do was "run" the credit applications from the greeters to the credit application processors in the back of the store... it would have been...
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jora:
Hmm. It said that your cam was on, but it isn't. I was looking forward to viewing you. Do you have AIM or Yahoo Messenger ID that you'd be willing to give out? I'd love to chat with you sometime.
audio:
what`s up superficial....dr.audio is in the house...leave me a msg if you want i`ll be on AIM later today...wink

Friday Oct 10, 2003

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today i got a phone call from that temp. agency that was going to place me with temp. to hire data entry jobs... they set me up with another job... it's gonna be weekdays affter my other job starting monday... so, i'm probably going to be m.i.a. for much of next week... i'm gonna be working 9-5 at my crap job and then 6-ish to...
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jora:
There's just something sexy about servers. I like to be waited on. It feels decadent. It doesn't take much for me. I get happy when someone brings me tea. Maybe I was royality in my last life with servants peeling grapes for me whilst fanning me with large palm leaves. I miss those days.

Two jobs? I hope it only equals 40 hours a week. I would die if I had to do 2 jobs. I can't even stand my one job.

I am sick to death with boredom tonight!!! I feel like bouncing off the walls. Blech!

That's it. I can't think of anything else to say. frown
csilla:
i am glad you are doing better!!! and yay for the job stuff. looks like thats coming along nicely!!! sorry i havent been around. i am away this weekend and i cant get this damn site to work back home. maybe when i get back it will magicaly work! yay!!! kiss

Thursday Oct 09, 2003

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hmmm... what to say about today?

well, it wasn't a bad day... i just keep going over everything in my head. i know what i want to say... but does anyone want to listen? i'm hoping one person in particular will want to talk to me, so at least i can honestly know where i stand.

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jora:
You cannot worry about what she may or may not do years from now. By then, you won't let her fuck up what's going on in your life. If you want it done and settled right now, YOU have the power to settle it. You don't have to wait for her to decide your Fate.

I wish for you that you would focus more on what you want now with all that she has put you through. You sound as if she said "come back", you'd drop everything and do it. I hope this is not the case. From what I know of you so far, you deserve no one less than a 100% loving person in your life. You should be treated with respect and caring.

I'll never understand why all the "good" men are taken / under the spell of women who do not appreciate them. Big hugs to you. I just want you to be happy. I'm here if you ever want to talk.
mamabunny:
Jeremia d'ah'ling-

Im really happy with the time that we did have to talk....Thanks for putting up with my silly self. Hope to talk soon....

Love(In that Non-In-Love-Way) hahaha

Lindsey

Wednesday Oct 08, 2003

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wow... i'm not feeliing this new look at all.

it's harder to navigate, crazy looking, and i just don't like it. frown

oh well, though.

today wasn't too bad... listened to a mix cd i made all day at work... it had whiny emo, punk, and some hardcore-ish stuff... and it made me equally sad, happy, angry and peaceful.

had another good chat with another co-worker......
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rxqueen:
YAY for me and you seeing DEFTONES AND THRICE!!!

sorry i haven't been online the past few days.
i forgot i wouldn't have the computer.
anyways, the portland trip ranges from nov 12-nov23 (tentative) so the VT trip is looking good.
I can't wait!!

I'm glad to hear yr feeling better.
I'll be online tonight probably and we'll chat and i'll cheer ya up if you need it.

*hug*

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tegan:
ill have to see how things go becuse im kind of strapped for cash righ tnow but i may be able to make it.

Tuesday Oct 07, 2003

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today, i slept... and slept.

i needed it. i'm starting to get sick. frown

i have so much crap to do today, but i don't feel like doing any of it... but, i guess that i'll just dig up some motivation and do it, anyway...

i'm feeling a little better (emotionally) today. i'm just so sick of feeling weak... i'm so sick of feeling like nobody...
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audio:
glad to hear that youre feeling better. dont ever be shy to msg me! wink
work was okay today. you know that im doing that internet thing right?? anyways. i had some strange requests....but i wont mention them here. ummmm....i am totally looking forward to going to see the deftones. were pretty sure that were gonna rent a car. im gonna try and get some more people to come so that we have a rockin hotel party. smile hehee.
we are gonna cheer you up like you have nooooo idea! wink
er:
YOU'RE cute too!
hooray!
may we both pop from cuteness.

Monday Oct 06, 2003

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i'm about ready...

this close...

don't ask.

why can't things just ever work out?

_________________________________

you all make me smile... smile

i came home feeling like shit, and now... not so bad.

yeah, so... 11.24.2003 burlington, vt - deftones/thrice/thursday let's do this!



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runholden:
Come on now...look at the LOVE already!!! Man, you got it good!!! smile

It WILL work out for you eventually, don't give up hope!

jora:
I find it odd that your name on SG is "superficial" when you are anything but.

Reading your entries reminds me of when my great love left me (this happened years ago). I went through many of the same feelings that you are having right now. I wish I could take away your pain (even though is it necessary...blah, blah, blah). You need some friendly nurturing involving being held and having your hair stroked. "She" was a lucky girl and has no idea what she is missing now. You are a wonderful person and any girl would be honored to have your heart.

*HUGS*
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