superfall

Work's been CRAZY!!! Now I have a bit of a breather before our next big project.

I'm going on my first cruise in about 2.5 weeks. I leave from Port Canaveral, FL and hit Nassau and Cococay then back. It will be a nice change in temperature compared to NJ. I don't miss the heat of Florida, but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate it...
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I am fairly itching to get a tattoo. I have a lot of big plans, but which one to start on is the question. This year is my year and I'm going to do the things I want to do and learn the things I've always wanted to learn and leave relationships in the background. It's not that I wouldn't welcome a serious relationship if...
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This year is ending pretty F'd up. As positive and hopeful as I was in the beginning, that's how down and negative I'm feeling with at the end. I feel like my life has been ripped apart and I'm in free fall. Most of this has to do with that "B" from work, but also with my niaivity and inexperience with adult relationships. Since I...
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It's funny. I should have seen the signs that Amy would betray me, but love is blind. I know now that I was projecting onto her what I wanted to see and not how she was. Last weekend I spent going over all the e-mails I had at work. I had deleted all of the ones on my personal e-mails, but at work they go...
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OMG!!! I've posted many blogs about my confusion with my relationship with Amy. This past holiday weekend she called me and we talked, we text back and forth a few times. In my frustration I sent her a letter telling her how I felt and what I was confused about and my desire for us to meet somewhere to clear the air. I get back...
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I'm running up against the clock as far as my membership to match.com is concerned. July 11th ends my subscription. If I don't meet someone on there by then, then I'm finished with it. I've been thinking a lot lately of getting out and taking lessons for things that interest me. One thing is learning the guitar. Another is learning to ride a motorcycle. Also...
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My goddaughter and her mom have gone home. I loved having my goddaughter Caitlyn here, but her mother had to GO! I'm so tired of being used by her. I can't see what ever attracted me to her. In trying to look at her sexually, all I could conjur up was repulsion.

I don't know what to do about Amy. I'm still stuck on her,...
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I love seeing Caitlyn again, but a week is too long. Oh, and the money that her mother was supposedly bringing to help out, that is going for all of the gifts they have to take back to family. I was tired of hearing her complain about how bad Florida was compared to Massachusettes. Now I'm hearing about how this area is worse than Florida...
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I'm as ready as I'm going to be for Caitlyn and Amy's visit. They're getting in early so they'll have plenty of time to get what they need and get situated before we leave tomorrow night.

I wonder what's going on with my Amy? She's been really quiet and sort of moody. More so than her period normally makes her in my opinion. I know...
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It's getting ready to storm here. I love it when it rains and a good storm really seems to clean the air. It's been so hot here, we need a break.

I'm really looking forward to Caitlyn coming here and visiting, but I don't really seem to be getting into the prep for it. I love it when I talk to her mom two days...
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