superfall

It's been a while. Back in February the building I was renting a condo in burned. I was on the second floor. The entire third floor was gutted. Obviously the building was unlivable. Of course I didn't have renter's insurance. The first time I didn't get it and I got burned (pun intended). So, I've had to find a new place and start over.

Regarding my living situation, it's pretty well gotten back to normal. My love life is something else. I'm still seeing Rebecca, but I'm just not feeling it. I had intended to break up with her, but then the fire happened and she was being so helpful I couldn't bring myself to hurt her then. Then my birthday came and she got me gifts. I don't know. I know there is no easy time to break up with someone and it's not right to string her along. I'm just used to being the breakie, not the breaker.

I don't know why I can't seem to connect emotionally. We have a lot in common and she loves sex and she's very nice. On the bad side, she looks exactly like a younger version of my spinster aunt. From her comments, she's not a very neat person (I'm not immaculate which makes me worried when she makes comments that I'm too neat), and I don't really find her body attractive. About the only reason I can perform when we have sex is because she is attractive personality. While I enjoy our time together, my emotions just aren't involved. It's like friends with benefits, but she doesn't realize it.