I feel in a rut. My job satisfaction is taking a real nose dive. Nothing seems to be moving as far as my relationship with Leah. I keep thinking about Melissa in Florida, but there's no work for me back there and I don't know if I want to go back to Florida. I keep thinking about going into business for myself, but my credit is shot and it would sure as hell not be in New Jersey. I also keep thinking about a novel to write, but I never actually write. I'm Blaaaahh!