superfall

Things are progressing slowly,but surely with Leah. Until she gets the custody thing cleared up with her son's father we're pretty limited to 12-5 on Sundays which sucks. We finally reached the stage where we're almost to sex (on the pill but wants a condom and guess what I didn't bring).

Then I went out Friday night with friends for the first time in forever and a woman sent the bartender down to sound me out. I told her I was dating someone, but apperently my description was such that she told the woman I was single, so I went down to talk with her. She's very cute, but I doubt it would lead to a relationship because I want kids, but she's at the stage I doubt that she does. We ended up exchanging phone numbers. Then I was crushed by guilt. I'm not emotionally involved yet with Leah from my pov, but I've committed the time and been understanding about her situation. I ended up leaving a message on Laura's phone Sunday afternoon (at my friends pressure, but the final decision was mine). Now it looks like we might be going on a first date this weekend. I'm very unsure about my actions.

At this point I'm consumed by blue balls. I'm so horny I can't think straight. However, I'm not the type to lead somenone on and I feel like that's what is what I'm doing with Laura. Would it crush Leah if she found out? Yes. Am I into Laura? For sex, yes, for a relationship, probably not. I'm very confused. This is counter to how I was brought up and totally outside my experience.

Feel free to offer advice.