superfall

I really need to get a life. One thing with not having the need to go to Florida so often is I can finally get more body mods done. I really want to start on my tattoos.

While getting my hair cut this evening I mentioned the gym I belong to. My hair cutter (a woman) replied with "that whore house". When I asked her about that she replied that her boyfriend was a member there and he was constantly telling her stories about what he'd see going on there. Now I've been a member there for over two years and it's rare that I see much posing and flirting. Now I wonder if I'm just that naive? Granted, when I'm at the gym I'm focused on my workout. That doesn't mean I don't appreciate the beautiful women that are there or the women working towards that, but I would never bug them with conversation because I don't want to be bugged while I'm working out. Am I missing out on an opportunity to meet someone by being so reclusive at the gym? Should I go out of my way during my workout to talk to the female members? Wouldn't I come off as creepy?

One thing that my hair cutter said about me that made me think (after all aren't hair dressers and bartenders really closet therapists?). She said that I'm too trusting of others. She's right. I don't anticipate negative or hurtful actions of other people unless they've already done something once and even then I sometimes make excuses. I don't want to say I'm an innocent, I've had my moments to be an asshole. However, when I realize I'm doing it or I recognize it later I stew over it for years. Another reason to get counciling.