superfall

I wish someone had sat me down when I was young to talk about relationships. Although it would probably been wasted on me at that age. I think the biggest realization I come across is that there is no closure. It's been almost a year since Amy out of the blue and after our breakup turned me in for sexual harrassment and sued the company. The last two days I haven't been able to get her out of my mind. That usually means I'm going to run into that person when that happens. I don't want to run into her. I always wonder, was this her plan in the beginning? Did she see me as a nice guy, aka sucker, and started planning. I know in hind sight she was playing me the whole time. Go back and read my previous blogs if you want to know why.

I have someone great in Florida that is young, exubarent, and full of life. However I don't love her. I like her as a friend and don't get me wrong that we have fun in bed. I don't know if it's because she lives so far away and I am keeping my feelings in check or if she was around more would I feel stronger about her?

The last couple of days, and last night especially, I've felt so alone. I desperately need another piercing or something to break me out of my doldrums. I can't say that I'm especially looking forward to going to Florida next weekend to see my goddaughter and Melissa. I think I'm more excited to be getting away from work and everything more than who I'm going to see.

Enough of the pity party. Eat, Drink, Fuck, and be Merry unless she's already taken.