It's funny. I should have seen the signs that Amy would betray me, but love is blind. I know now that I was projecting onto her what I wanted to see and not how she was. Last weekend I spent going over all the e-mails I had at work. I had deleted all of the ones on my personal e-mails, but at work they go to a different file on my computer. I had over 2000 e-mails between us since coming to New Jersey last June. I ended up reliving our entire relationship all over again. There was a period of about a month that I think she was actually happy with us. Then it changed again. Anyhow, it's funny. I had an e-mail that refuted almost everything that she has put a complaint in on me about. She printed out images of my cock that I had sent her. I had an e-mail from the day after I had sent them discussing it with her and how she had asked for the pictures. She had a fantasy I had sent her about having sex in the warehouse. I had an e-mail from the week before with her inviting me back to the warehouse. I had e-mails where we talked about us having sex and her saying it was her choice not mine etc. I had one from her asking to come to my place for a nooner one day. I ended up giving my boss a file 3 inches thick of e-mails that showed her instigating, encouraging, or going along with everything sexual between us. Along with that a timeline of our "relationship". I hope that our lawyer can use this to get her to drop her case. It's been mentioned to me that I should counter sue. In one sense, I'd like to get revenge for the hurt she caused me. However, if I did win, it would hurt her son and I wouldn't really gain any satisfaction and would gain an enemy. Not that I think she'll think rosey thoughts of me if we win this case, but she probably won't be out of any money.

I almost sympathize with why she did it. She had incriminating evidence that any lawyer would take. She wasn't happy with the company and had no loyalty to it. Her brother and her ex boyfriend had drained her savings. It was probably too tempting not to do it considering the people she hangs around with which has to color her judgement. The only problem is that it was personal to me. I could have been fired because of the allegations, or demoted. I would have had no hope of finding anything near what I am making with an accusation like that over my head. If her lawyer does drop the case, I'll have a lot to think about regarding whether or not to pursue a counter suit. Not because it's right or wrong, but because of what kind of person I am.