superfall

It's HOTTTT!!!! I left Florida to get away from this weather. Well, it's three days and counting 'til Caitlyn and her mom get here. I'm looking forward to seeing them. Right now I feel like I need a friend. I'm feeling really lonely and I'm fighting depression every day. I have a great job and work with great people. I live in a nice condo and I finally have book cases. I don't have a couch, but I'm working on it. I don't really have anything to be depressed about, but I like to share my feelings and thoughts with someone who at least seems to care and I miss that.

It makes me think. Amy doesn't really let people get close. Or at least she always kept me at arms length. She's had a lot of hurt in her life and I don't blame her. I know she's a lot more fragile than she lets on. That's one reason she hurts so much. I would take on her hurt and do all in my power to prevent more. I think that scares her as much as my feelings do. She has a lot of "friends" and I know she would do a lot for them, but there are friends that would bail you out and then there's friends that will help you hide the body. I wonder how many of the latter she has. I don't have many friends, but the ones I do would help me dig the grave.

She seemed sort of out of it today. I wonder what happened this weekend? It's none of my business, but that doesn't keep me from wondering. Oh, well if she wanted me to know, then she'd tell me.