superfall

I'm pissed at a comment that someone at the office made. On thinking on it, maybe I'm just being to elitist. She is the Natural Foods Director for my company. However, she doesn't have much experience in regards to merchandising and store layouts. I've got 20 years in the industry with at least 12 years of it centered around merchandising products, developing sets and creating layout flows for stores. To have her question what I do just makes me mad. That doesn't mean that what I do is perfect. There are many schools of thought on how to merchandise items in a grocery store. I can come up with a schematic based on whichever way I'm directed. If I don't have direction, then I lean on my experience and what pleases me. I think what pisses me off is that she doesn't want to do the work of creating a schematic from scratch, but she's free to criticize the work of someone else. Also, I think I have a better feel for what our boss is looking for. That doesn't mean that he doesn't make changes to my work, but they are usually small changes and not complete reworks (unless he didn't give me directions on how he envisioned it, but even then I'm getting better at guessing what he wants.).

She puts Amy in a bad mood also. I tend to get flustered when Amy is moody. I don't know if I take it personally, like it's my fault. However, I do feel that it's my responsibility to try and get her out of it which rarely works. I know it's not natural to want someone to be happy all of the time, but I don't want her unhappy if there is anything I can do about it. What I'm working on is realizing that there is rarely anything I can do about it.

It's kind of funny that I can't seem to envision sex with anyone except Amy. Not that sex is all I want from her, but I just find her so sexy and sexual I can't get it out of my mind. Even if I'm looking at porn, I see her face and her body superimposed over the model. When I rub one out I can't help but call her name. If I ever meet someone else I can just imagine me calling Amy's name out during sex. That would be the end of that relationship! Something else I've realized is that I've never shown my penis to someone so much outside of a bedroom. I just can't seem to help whipping it out when I'm thinking of her. That's it. I'm done. Good night.