I am frustrated with my goddaughter's family. I did commit to visiting with her throughout the year. As I've stated in earlier blogs, I'm the only father figure she has. She's absolutely adorable. She'll be 10 in February and she looks like she' 6. She is very intelligent though. Well, her mother is talking to me about planning out the year and before I know it she's got me using all two weeks of vacation that I get visiting Caitlyn (my goddaughter). Don't get me wrong, but I also have a life. It's not like she's my own daughter. Then to boot, I have to pay for her and her mother's way. So for them to visit here I have to pay for their airfare, arrange their transportation, tickets and accomodations for Hershey Park for all of us besides just food. Another time she wants me to meet them in Boston where it's stay at their various friends houses for the duration or arrange for hotel rooms myself. Then I'm also committed to Thanksgiving.
I was starting to get pissed. I finally told her that I do have other commitments, like to my own family, that I need vacation time for. She backed off, but I'm not sure she got the point. She's been one of my closest friends for 12 years and I love her daughter, but she takes it too far. She was even dropping hints about wanting to do something for Caitlyn for her birthday, but she doesn't have the money for it. This happens so often, I just ignor it. If she had wanted me to be her provider, then she shouldn't have jerked me around when we tried dating. In some ways, she reminds me of my ex-wife. She wants all the benefits of marriage without any of the responsibilities.
Things with Amy and me are going OK. Because of her family commitments, we haven't been able to see each other alone for around a month and a half. As long as she's not unhappy with me, I can wait for things to settle down. However, when I see her at work, I ache. She's beautiful, funny, sarcastic, and intelligent. I've gotten in the habit of writing little fantasies to her. Partly because I know it get's her bothered at work.
However, I end up with a hard on most of the time thinking about her. I do my work around sending her e-mails. I would love to read or hear a fantasy of hers.
I'm investigating some civil war reenacting groups here in New Jersey. It's a hobby I used to enjoy and I'd like to get back into it. It's also something that I think Amy's son would like as well as Amy herself. So far I've only heard from one of the groups I've e-mailed and that was to pass me on to their official recruiter. We'll see how it goes.
Other than that I'm doing well and keeping busy.
I was starting to get pissed. I finally told her that I do have other commitments, like to my own family, that I need vacation time for. She backed off, but I'm not sure she got the point. She's been one of my closest friends for 12 years and I love her daughter, but she takes it too far. She was even dropping hints about wanting to do something for Caitlyn for her birthday, but she doesn't have the money for it. This happens so often, I just ignor it. If she had wanted me to be her provider, then she shouldn't have jerked me around when we tried dating. In some ways, she reminds me of my ex-wife. She wants all the benefits of marriage without any of the responsibilities.
Things with Amy and me are going OK. Because of her family commitments, we haven't been able to see each other alone for around a month and a half. As long as she's not unhappy with me, I can wait for things to settle down. However, when I see her at work, I ache. She's beautiful, funny, sarcastic, and intelligent. I've gotten in the habit of writing little fantasies to her. Partly because I know it get's her bothered at work.
However, I end up with a hard on most of the time thinking about her. I do my work around sending her e-mails. I would love to read or hear a fantasy of hers.
I'm investigating some civil war reenacting groups here in New Jersey. It's a hobby I used to enjoy and I'd like to get back into it. It's also something that I think Amy's son would like as well as Amy herself. So far I've only heard from one of the groups I've e-mailed and that was to pass me on to their official recruiter. We'll see how it goes.
Other than that I'm doing well and keeping busy.