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I'm going to help my brother feed the farm animals today at the living history 1870's model farm he works at in the Land Between the Lakes National Park. The farm is closed to visitors for the season, but the animals don't know that. So, obviously they have to be fed. This is just a way my mom is getting me out of the house while I'm here.

Christmas wasn't bad. My family lived up to their joking ways and I now own a "pooping" deer, penguin, and the grinches dog. Also a pair of boxer shorts with the words "Just Balls" on the waist band. Also a CD of Christmas paradies and some John Deer items. I'm thinking of laying them out on my desk when I go back to work.

I'm trying my best to take it easy in regards to Amy. I called and wished her a good morning, but I'm not going to call again today except maybe when I'm ready for bed. She doesn't need me pestering her right now and I'm not there anyways if she were free to meet. I keep getting a bad premonition that something is going to happen, but I don't know if it's echos because of the similarities to what happened last holiday. If it is meant to be, then it's meant to be. I have no reason to be so possesive. I feel possesive because I really like her and her son (the little I've interacted with him) and because I lust after her constantly. Does that make me a pig? Yes. However, if there isn't any physical attraction then we would just be friends which is what I really don't want this to "just" be.