I just returned from a business trip to Boise with a 12 hour layover in Las Vegas. It was my first time there and my boss and the owners son made sure it was a fun visit for what it was. I drank way too much, but not as much as them.
In some ways I feel like I'm getting closer to amy than ever. However, in others I feel like we're almost drifting apart. Part of it is because she's sick. She's also stuborn. She doesn't want to go to the doctors and doesn't want to take anti-biotics, but she's had a sore throat for three weeks. Now she has a spider bite that is bothering her. I think because she doesn't feel well it's kept her somewhat stand offish. On the other hand our talks are more personable than ever. I really don't want this to develop just into a friendship. Don't get me wrong, I want us to be friends, but I want it to be more. For one thing it would be hard to be just friends with someone that looks as good as she does. Another thing is that I constantly find myself worried for her. She is a strong and independent woman who has brought up a child by herself and as I understand it, two of her brothers children for a while too. She isn't afraid to work, she's not intimidated by a job being messy. The other thing is she doesn't want to be made a fuss over. I think that is a big part of the reason that I really like her and care for her is because she doesn't ask anything from me. It makes me want to do things for her and get her things. As I see it, a man needs to feel needed. If he isn't then he can't feel like a man in the relationship. That doesn't mean that I want someone that wants me to do everything. I've been there, done that, got the ripped up t-shirt. What I want is someone that will work and walk beside me, not pull me along or drive me along ,but be with me.
I like her son too. We've only gone out a couple of times and he is pretty quiet, but I see a lot of her sense of humor in him. I don't want to push myself on him. I want to include him as much as I can and leave the choice up to him. The one thing is that if this relationship does develop further, he is going to have to get used to me being around, but I don't want him to resent me. I also don't want him to think I'm buying him over. I got him something when I went to Florida, but I also got his mother some souvenires. For Christmas I got him a neat remote control car. If he doesn't want it, I'll take it. It didn't cost much and I think it's something he'll like. Likewise I got his mother something. She'll be pissed. She's insisted that I don't get her anything. So I've done likewise, but I still bought her something. Not because I had to, but because I wanted to. I don't think she realizes how happy it makes me to get her something that she hasn't asked for. If she constantly asked me for something I'd quickly resent it as being used. Again been there and done that. Oh, well, we're still getting to know one another and if she's really interested in me then she'll learn that about me.
In some ways I feel like I'm getting closer to amy than ever. However, in others I feel like we're almost drifting apart. Part of it is because she's sick. She's also stuborn. She doesn't want to go to the doctors and doesn't want to take anti-biotics, but she's had a sore throat for three weeks. Now she has a spider bite that is bothering her. I think because she doesn't feel well it's kept her somewhat stand offish. On the other hand our talks are more personable than ever. I really don't want this to develop just into a friendship. Don't get me wrong, I want us to be friends, but I want it to be more. For one thing it would be hard to be just friends with someone that looks as good as she does. Another thing is that I constantly find myself worried for her. She is a strong and independent woman who has brought up a child by herself and as I understand it, two of her brothers children for a while too. She isn't afraid to work, she's not intimidated by a job being messy. The other thing is she doesn't want to be made a fuss over. I think that is a big part of the reason that I really like her and care for her is because she doesn't ask anything from me. It makes me want to do things for her and get her things. As I see it, a man needs to feel needed. If he isn't then he can't feel like a man in the relationship. That doesn't mean that I want someone that wants me to do everything. I've been there, done that, got the ripped up t-shirt. What I want is someone that will work and walk beside me, not pull me along or drive me along ,but be with me.
I like her son too. We've only gone out a couple of times and he is pretty quiet, but I see a lot of her sense of humor in him. I don't want to push myself on him. I want to include him as much as I can and leave the choice up to him. The one thing is that if this relationship does develop further, he is going to have to get used to me being around, but I don't want him to resent me. I also don't want him to think I'm buying him over. I got him something when I went to Florida, but I also got his mother some souvenires. For Christmas I got him a neat remote control car. If he doesn't want it, I'll take it. It didn't cost much and I think it's something he'll like. Likewise I got his mother something. She'll be pissed. She's insisted that I don't get her anything. So I've done likewise, but I still bought her something. Not because I had to, but because I wanted to. I don't think she realizes how happy it makes me to get her something that she hasn't asked for. If she constantly asked me for something I'd quickly resent it as being used. Again been there and done that. Oh, well, we're still getting to know one another and if she's really interested in me then she'll learn that about me.