superfall

I'm running up against the clock as far as my membership to match.com is concerned. July 11th ends my subscription. If I don't meet someone on there by then, then I'm finished with it. I've been thinking a lot lately of getting out and taking lessons for things that interest me. One thing is learning the guitar. Another is learning to ride a motorcycle. Also...
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My goddaughter and her mom have gone home. I loved having my goddaughter Caitlyn here, but her mother had to GO! I'm so tired of being used by her. I can't see what ever attracted me to her. In trying to look at her sexually, all I could conjur up was repulsion.

I don't know what to do about Amy. I'm still stuck on her,...
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I love seeing Caitlyn again, but a week is too long. Oh, and the money that her mother was supposedly bringing to help out, that is going for all of the gifts they have to take back to family. I was tired of hearing her complain about how bad Florida was compared to Massachusettes. Now I'm hearing about how this area is worse than Florida...
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I'm as ready as I'm going to be for Caitlyn and Amy's visit. They're getting in early so they'll have plenty of time to get what they need and get situated before we leave tomorrow night.

I wonder what's going on with my Amy? She's been really quiet and sort of moody. More so than her period normally makes her in my opinion. I know...
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It's getting ready to storm here. I love it when it rains and a good storm really seems to clean the air. It's been so hot here, we need a break.

I'm really looking forward to Caitlyn coming here and visiting, but I don't really seem to be getting into the prep for it. I love it when I talk to her mom two days...
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It's HOTTTT!!!! I left Florida to get away from this weather. Well, it's three days and counting 'til Caitlyn and her mom get here. I'm looking forward to seeing them. Right now I feel like I need a friend. I'm feeling really lonely and I'm fighting depression every day. I have a great job and work with great people. I live in a nice condo...
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I wonder if Amy ever read my blogs or my e-mail. I know that she let me go because she said it wasn't fair to me. I wonder if I see meanings between us that aren't there?

I'm feeling like crap with this cold. Tomorrow I have to clean my place in preperations for my goddaughter and her mother's visit. It will be nice to have some days off. I wish Amy and Cody could be part of it, but it's not to be.

I haven't bought any smokes and feel no desire to smoke. I'm back to a social smoker status...
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I just couldn't last. I worked with Amy more than I have since we went to Delaware together. I came home and decided to rest and before I knew it, I was stroking myself to thoughts of Amy. I'd stop myself and try to read or something, and then I would find myself rubbing my crotch and then stroking my cock. I finally couldn't stand...
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I'm sitting here in the office with Amy. She doesn't know that I'm writing this. I can see her profile. I love the way her ear sticks out from under her hair. Her hair has a reddish tint to it. The other week when we were back at my place after we went to Delaware we were horsing around and I grabbed her and started...
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Well, this is day four of the no rubbing out watch and it's getting tougher every day. I keep catching myself playing with myself and fantasizing about Amy. I was out of the office today and I really missed seeing her. Maybe that's why it's been so hard to keep from thinking about her today?

This is day 5 of the non smoking watch. Not...
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It's late, so I'll keep this short and sweet.

I almost broke my resolve today. I played with myself in bed at my desk, and in the shower, but kept from reaching climax. The thought of Amy's body haunts me and it hadn't even been three days.

I resisted smoking once again today, even when I was around other people smoking.

Amy accepted and I...
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