superdave69

ok so here is the the stupid lil love life i have. so i been friends with the person since like 3 years ago. we met about 8 years ago but just started talking a lot when i got to california mt duty station. i have always been in love with her since the first time i ever seen her. and found out she has some feelings toward me. my stupid ass missed all her signals and met someone in cali last year. well that is about to change cause i will be filing for divorce. not cause of my friend just cause i cant really stand my wife anymore. the hardest part is even if we did get together it would be a long trem relationship cause she id back in chicago. i have asked a few times for her to come out to cali but she has family responsibilities and cant leave. today i got an email from her saying she is talking to an ex. and shes happy. there is a part of me who wants her to be happy but then i feel like i will be the one stuck on the outside if all goes well with her and the ex. i dont know if im being selfish, jealous or both. all i know she is my best friend who i love with all my heart. and if things go well i will just be suportive......THANK YOU IF YOU READ THIS