ah today has been a really awesome day
last day of classes... got a place to live over the summer.... and got some the summer figure drawing class i wanted
but something is bothering me
and i just want to get it out...
but tonight, i went to some parties, and i got hit an by some cute guys... one in particular that a few of my friends would really like to be with- and he's actually a good person, and really good to girls and all that
but i cant
i cant do anything with anything other than v...
and its pissing me off.... HE'S NOT MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND
and furthermore, i KNOW i dont want a relationship
i just
something is making me feel weird
actually im just going to come right out and say it- im fucking attached
and obviously, if we've been fucking for over a year, then im going to get at least a little attached
but i know that i cant afford to be attached.... especially to him
because he will ALWAYS break my heart
hah and i guess i'll always let him
but in october, he's leaving for brazil... hopefully
it's gonna fuckin kill me to have him leave.
but he has to
cause this shit aint going nowhere
but on a lighter note....
trey (as in trey anastasio from phish) played literaly right next to where i live
which was tight, although he sucked
someday, ill tell the story about last august, when i walked 17 miles to see phish
but also, i get to live with a girl who i was best friends with in elementary school for two months over the summer while i take my figure drawing 2 class (which i decided to take due to the fact that i want to get really good at this shit, considering im taking it like everyday next semester)
and i got a B in figure drawing, which is good fer that class
but yea... i feel kind of self centered and annoying at the moment, so i'm going to stop typing
hey the pixies rock, by the way
last day of classes... got a place to live over the summer.... and got some the summer figure drawing class i wanted
but something is bothering me
and i just want to get it out...
but tonight, i went to some parties, and i got hit an by some cute guys... one in particular that a few of my friends would really like to be with- and he's actually a good person, and really good to girls and all that
but i cant
i cant do anything with anything other than v...
and its pissing me off.... HE'S NOT MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND
and furthermore, i KNOW i dont want a relationship
i just
something is making me feel weird
actually im just going to come right out and say it- im fucking attached
and obviously, if we've been fucking for over a year, then im going to get at least a little attached
but i know that i cant afford to be attached.... especially to him
because he will ALWAYS break my heart
hah and i guess i'll always let him
but in october, he's leaving for brazil... hopefully
it's gonna fuckin kill me to have him leave.
but he has to
cause this shit aint going nowhere
but on a lighter note....
trey (as in trey anastasio from phish) played literaly right next to where i live
which was tight, although he sucked
someday, ill tell the story about last august, when i walked 17 miles to see phish
but also, i get to live with a girl who i was best friends with in elementary school for two months over the summer while i take my figure drawing 2 class (which i decided to take due to the fact that i want to get really good at this shit, considering im taking it like everyday next semester)
and i got a B in figure drawing, which is good fer that class
but yea... i feel kind of self centered and annoying at the moment, so i'm going to stop typing
hey the pixies rock, by the way
why stay,or try to stay, with someone you know will always break your heart??