apparently, my body doesn't want to stay at rest anymore. it always finds a lame excuse to hop out of bed in the wee hours of morning. sometimes, it seems i get up to watch the sun rise. sometimes, its for a gulp of milk straight from the container. sometimes, its awful, vivid dreams that scare me half to death. other times, its just the... Read More
it takes all the running you can do to keep in the same place. if you want to get to somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that.
ps. i'm not doing this again. i think it's just the abruptness. i feel like i've just been winded and left in this big open space that's changing really fast and i'm so... Read More
your trials and tribulations. your effortless acts in a tired screenplay. the way you guys turn your heads.you know he up and hung himself in Paris?perhaps you've skipped a line.perhaps you've done one too many. this is the drama of the wretched old queens.
i am currently planning a trip to the following places this summer:
-dublin
-london
-paris
-amsterdam
-florence
-rome
-vienna
-prague
i feel loose.
i feel haggard.
my mind is numb.
my thoughts are empty.
i'm weak and high.
like a vaggabond through the distance.
i wanna weep.
i wanna run.
i wanna spin.
i wanna whirl.
i wanna steam myself open.
i wanna suck my emotions.
i wanna let you see.
i need the leatch from watching you.
i'm feeling very... Read More
when the AC hum inside your sleepy head, drowns the start up chime inside your heart. technology is there to cure yourself. this is where it has to stop.
when i look back upon my life, it's always with a sense of shame. i've always been the one to blame. for everything i long to do, no matter when or where or who,has one thing in common, too. it's a sin. everything i've ever done, everything i ever do, every place i've ever been,everywhere i'm going to. it's a sin. at school they taught... Read More
I unfortunately have similar feelings. Not so much a sense of impurity due to the glaring eyes of others, but more so a feeling of shame due to my own harsh standards. It's a goddamn burden if I've ever had one...And to survive I've built up quite a mental block on the past. I can't even enjoy good memories for fear of looking back in the first place at this point.
kiss and kill me sweetly.
come and drive me home.
drag the miles in me.
i am yours alone.
inside where it's warm.
wrap myself in you.
outside where i'm torn.
fight myself in two.
in two.
into, you.
desire me so deeply.
drain and kick me hard.
whisper secrets for me.
try to go too far.
inside where it's warm.
wrap myself in you.... Read More
..why isnt there a hug smiley?!!...
feel free to stop by any time for the second round