sunnysunny

i feel loose.
i feel haggard.
my mind is numb.
my thoughts are empty.
i'm weak and high.
like a vaggabond through the distance.
i wanna weep.
i wanna run.
i wanna spin.
i wanna whirl.
i wanna steam myself open.
i wanna suck my emotions.
i wanna let you see.
i need the leatch from watching you.
i'm feeling very warm right now.
comepare me to Fred Astaire when i'm done here.
souviens toi ce jour-l toi et moi.
je veux trouver l'oubli.
toi tu m'aimeras.

i listen to "ne me quitte pas" and cry. a lot.

Ne me quitte pas
Il faut oublier
Tout peut Qui s'enfuit dj
Oublier le temps
Des malentendus
Et le temps perdu
A savoir comment
Oublier ces heures
Qui tuaient parfois
A coups de pourquoi
Le cur du bonheur
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Moi je t'offrirai
Des perles de pluie
Venues de pays
O il ne pleut pas
Je creuserai la terre
Jusqu'aprs ma mort
Pour couvrir ton corps
D'or et de lumire
Je ferai un domaine
O l'amour sera roi
O l'amour sera loi
O tu seras reine
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Ne me quitte pas
Je t'inventerai
Des mots insenss
Que tu comprendras
Je te parlerai
De ces amants-l
Qui ont vu deux fois
Leurs curs s'embraser
Je te raconterai
L'histoire de ce roi
Mort de n'avoir pas
Pu te rencontrer
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas


Ne me quitte pas
Je ne vais plus pleurer
Je ne vais plus parler
Je me cacherai l
A te regarder
Danser et sourire
Et t'couter
Chanter et puis rire
Laisse-moi devenir
L'ombre de ton ombre
L'ombre de ta main
L'ombre de ton chien
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas.

do not leave me
it is necessary to forget
all can be forgotten
who flees already
to forget me
misunderstanding
and wasted time
namely how
to forget these hours
who killed sometimes
with blows of why
the heart of happiness
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me

me, i will offer to you
pearls of rain
arrivals of country
where it does not rain
i will dig the ground
until after my death
to cover your body
of gold and light
i will make a field
where the love will be a king
where the love will be law
where you will be queen
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me

do not leave me
i will invent you
foolish words
that you will understand
i will speak to you
of these lovers
who saw twice
their hearts to blaze up
i will tell you
history of this king
died not to have not
pu to meet you
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me

do not leave me
i will not cry anymore
i will not speak anymore
i will hide there
with you to look at
to dance and smile
and to listen to you
to sing and then to laugh
let become to me
shadow of your shadow
shadow of you hand
shadow of your dog
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me
do not leave me

did you know that that is the saddest song in the world?
thats how i loved chris. what is wrong with me. i don't wanna be sad all the time. i dont even know why i'm sad most of the time. my acount will be cancelled feb 26 so ill have to start writing more in my little scrapbook more. i smoked a whole pack of cigarettes today. a joint. then two captain blacks because i was out of cigarettes. nothing makes me happy anymore.