sunnysunny

the divinity of jesus was voted on, is it all just lies then? does it all truely come down to power?
the bible was not faxed from heaven.
these are the moments that are all too real. when life is all too fragile and it's length all too short. we grow faster as the years fall onward, picking up with the motion of time...maybe we are all just sitting ducks, but then who's the one tapping us on the head?
in the end you have yourself, just like you always didn't know.
i don't think i could surrender again, i don't think i want to-it scares me above all other things, to love and lose...but above all other things i am most jaded by this notion, i am the least surprised 'cause in the end that's the way it goes. i give myself a hug, you should too.
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Dear Ex:

Everything has it's own life span. Some die, some are reborn and the very special ones are immortal. Wise is the person with the grace to walk away, to know when it's time. This is a person who is beautiful for accepting things for what they are, a lesson. I guess the whole point is to come out a different human being, to be changed or saved for that matter-to be stronger and better than you once were. I am. I used to do so much just to make you stay. Never again.
My lesson, to let go. I can do that now. All the bad things, the scars inside and out just fly out of my hands. I used to love you and maybe you'll always have a part of me, the old me. But bye now...there are so many things that I'm looking foward to doing, not looking back being one of them.
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i feel like i am going to have a nervous breakdown.
i either want to get in bed and never come out or damage/kill things.

how do i relieve stress?

xoxo
sunny

by the way,
Ray Charles,

makes my heart melt.