sunnysunny

i pray that you will fade away from me
fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away
i don't remember you, i don't think of you, i don't know you
fade away, leave, go far far away, wipe the slate, close my eyes, i pray, i pray, blue light, blue light-just let me sit in it, forever, too deep, you'll sink, burn the pictures, throw them out, throw everything out that does remind me, change my name, change my hair, change the color of my eyes, i don't care, just go away, please leave me-you haunt me no more, you ghost, i know i hate you 'cause i loved you, go away, go away, whatever hook it was take it out of me, it's gone, you left it's gone, i don't remember anymore, really i don't, i don't even know what i'm writing about.


i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. i'm sick and tired of being everyone's fucking joyride...of being this thing that's just so easily placed back on a shelf when it's eyes get too sad to look into anymore. i gotta get the fuck outta here, really, there's nothing here anymore-and the longer i stay the more i hurt the unfortunate ones who chose to take me in. may god have pity on their souls. i never meant them any harm. i wanna go to live in europe. fuck new york.

xo
s.