sunniapocalypse

No Lies, Just Love

It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies
Just love.
Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know i will be pure
Like snow, like gold[


That song made me cry today.

i honestly felt like I wanted to die...
while listening to that I just started crying.

My sister was sitting a foot away from me.
She didnt even notice.
i dont know who my friends are anymore.
i dont know what its like to be in love anymore.
I dont know what family is like anymore.

if you say you are my friend and you dont feel anything for or even care to talk to me anymore. leave me alone and remove me from your list because if you do not care then you do not deserve to know me as a person. Im not going to spend time worrying about people who do not worry about me.

Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong

EDIT!
I think its cute when guys with girlfriends come over and try to make out with me.