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there was a tow truck outside of my house. I called my Mom and asked her if she had paid anything on the car. She said how can i pay for anything if i cant get above negative in my checking account. She followed up by saying, im just waiting for the day when I wake up and the cars not there. Maybe soon ill be living on the street. that will rule.
whatever guys. fuck this. I wish I could cancel my suicidegirls account and get themoney for the months I wont use because i need it more than SG does, but its not possible. my life is falling apart. and no one wants to help. Im trying to help myself, but what if I get a job I wont have a car to get there. Right now all i do is sit at home and drink and cry because I cant even leave my house because im scared of getting pulled over and getting a ticket for not having insurance on a car thats getting repossessed. what did i do wrong in my life?
i hate you.
Dear Patrick,
I deleted you from my friends list because I cant read about how unhappy you are. I cant see that you are heartbroken. All I want to do is make you happy and I cant even do that apparently. When I eat I throw up, when i sleep i continuously wake up until i dont feel like laying down anymore. I cry constantly. Im honestly heartbroken. I want us to work because I love you. When I said I loved you i meant it. I didnt mean, Ill love you until you piss me off. I cancelled going to see my food idol because i would have rather spent time with you. I ended up not doing either because I sat around hoping that maybe something had happened and you'd call and tell me everything was okay and you'd be here later. I was wrong. I waited only to find out that you took something I said out of context and now you think I meant we're over. You could have told me that a week ago and saved me from being sick for a week. But you couldnt. You couldnt even text me or email me. You ran away from it. And I still love you. Wow im rediculous, right? I mean, because I put myself out there loving someone and thats stupid. This is my public love letter to you. Too bad its too late and love means nothing.
...so this is what real heartbreak feels like?
there was a tow truck outside of my house. I called my Mom and asked her if she had paid anything on the car. She said how can i pay for anything if i cant get above negative in my checking account. She followed up by saying, im just waiting for the day when I wake up and the cars not there. Maybe soon ill be living on the street. that will rule.
whatever guys. fuck this. I wish I could cancel my suicidegirls account and get themoney for the months I wont use because i need it more than SG does, but its not possible. my life is falling apart. and no one wants to help. Im trying to help myself, but what if I get a job I wont have a car to get there. Right now all i do is sit at home and drink and cry because I cant even leave my house because im scared of getting pulled over and getting a ticket for not having insurance on a car thats getting repossessed. what did i do wrong in my life?
i hate you.
Dear Patrick,
I deleted you from my friends list because I cant read about how unhappy you are. I cant see that you are heartbroken. All I want to do is make you happy and I cant even do that apparently. When I eat I throw up, when i sleep i continuously wake up until i dont feel like laying down anymore. I cry constantly. Im honestly heartbroken. I want us to work because I love you. When I said I loved you i meant it. I didnt mean, Ill love you until you piss me off. I cancelled going to see my food idol because i would have rather spent time with you. I ended up not doing either because I sat around hoping that maybe something had happened and you'd call and tell me everything was okay and you'd be here later. I was wrong. I waited only to find out that you took something I said out of context and now you think I meant we're over. You could have told me that a week ago and saved me from being sick for a week. But you couldnt. You couldnt even text me or email me. You ran away from it. And I still love you. Wow im rediculous, right? I mean, because I put myself out there loving someone and thats stupid. This is my public love letter to you. Too bad its too late and love means nothing.
...so this is what real heartbreak feels like?
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cambria:
i love you
superstarcsb:
if you ever need help with anything, i can try my best. if you need a little cash or something whatever, just let me know.