sunflash

So, life as it usually does has gotten interesting. I managed to wear myself down to the nub so bad last week that I put myself in the hospital last tuesday with Viral Gastro interitous. In otherwords bad puky, shitty, spewing from both ends stomach infection. While there I managed to get told that I might be one of the lucky contestants who seems to be getting what the Docs are looking to term Gulf War 2 syndrom. Not happy but after a brief over night stay I was released to spend the next threedays on my couch sleeping for all but five hours a day. But all bad stuff aside I did get to travel to Anchorage with MotherChaos for an SCA event. OF course the SCA has been great but tiring as of late however this was a great event. I went to fight and realized that I didn't have the energy and couldn't even hold my sword up once the fighting started. I ended up bowing out after one fight due to still being sick. All in all not my best showing. The weekend was still good and on Sunday I got to work with our current Prince who is an amazing swordsman and he and I worked one on one and it really helped me to refocus and pull my shit together and remember why I do this. All the technique aside it was the mental aspect that I took the most from it. I have started to travel an almost zen path with my fighting thougt process now and I think it will really make a difference in where I am headed.

All that and I realized that I don't like my job even though all the reasons to like it are there. Who knows why but I have to say I just don't like it. Well I will be back with more later but hey at least I am wrtiting right?