sunflash

OK so life is still throwing curveballs, either that or I chucked a shit ton of boomerangs and really need to be paying more attention. Life it self is no problem but getting out of the Army almost seems harder than it was to be deployed for so long. I have a ton of stuff to get done and no time to get it done in and to make things worse some other people screwed up and now I don't even have everything I need to get out let alone to get started at school. I feel kinda like I'm just bithching but frankly this is my place to vent where the majority (i.e. almost all) of the people I know in the real world won't be looking at what I write and doing the usual judgment thing.

So this girl I have been sort of seeing has be all sorts of confused. First off she takes my breath away with just a kiss but she is so far the oppisite of my morality its ubsurd. She is a DEVOUTE christian and I am quite throughly not, though I have been scared into thinking I might be wrong but who knows where that will go. So she and I are really having a good time together and very interested. Then comes the giant BUT. She is a VERY christian and even wears a promise ring between her and god. Now for once this doesn't bother me about the no sex thing. The problem is that she won't even "date" me cause she "can't share Jesus with me". Am I crazy or is that nuts? We really do great together and are for all intensive purposes dating but, not. So should I just go back to my old debaucherous self and forget her or am I supposed to give into my fears and consider this a "sign from god" and start looking into religion? Well who knows I am just to stressed to deal with all this shit right now.

So at least my dog is still the greatest ever but then again thats what I got him for, to be the stabilizer my life so needed now. Well I'm off to go run off frustrations on a treadmill since its to fucking cold to do it out side.