I am in a weird mood today.....
A lot of people, especially my family members, have been noticing a change in my personality lately and I think it has something to do with the fact that I increased my medication a couple of weeks ago, perhaps it finally kicked in. I know Tiger is happy that I am no longer the controlling, hostile person I once was and I don't blame him for the feelings he has felt in the past, I'd feel the same way if I were in his shoes. My family, I know is definitely relieved, they experienced things that Tiger won't have to worry about experiencing, I feel bad because I was in denial for so long and put them through all the turmoil and pain that wasn't necessary. I know there is nothing I can do to change the past but I am doing something about changing the present and the future and I know for a fact everyone in my life is not only relieved but proud of me as well.
Tiger and I talked last night and he told me that there was no way in hell he was going to stay with me any longer if I didn't get my disorder under control, he couldn't take the stress and being in fear of not knowing when and if I was going to have another episode. He is very excited about me taking responsibility for myself and getting everything under control, he said he is still kind of scared because I am so mellow and don't get pissed nearly as easy as I used too, he doesn't know when and if I am going to have another episode and freak out.
I got my blood drawn today and the mother fucker hurt my arm. He said he had been doing phlebotomy for 10 years as he shoved the needle right into my arm. Fucking douche bag didn't even apologize, I covered my face with my other hand as tears started to build in my eyes, I was so pissed. He was a lucky bastard, if I wasn't medicated I would have gone off and most likely would've had to have been escorted out of the building but I bit my tongue. My mom was there with me and she said she could feel the pain when the guy drew my blood. I know I am going to have a bruise as my arm still hurts from this morning!!!!
I have never had this much blood on a cotton ball after getting my blood drawn...... mother fucker
Until Next Time SG...... *hugs and kisses*
A lot of people, especially my family members, have been noticing a change in my personality lately and I think it has something to do with the fact that I increased my medication a couple of weeks ago, perhaps it finally kicked in. I know Tiger is happy that I am no longer the controlling, hostile person I once was and I don't blame him for the feelings he has felt in the past, I'd feel the same way if I were in his shoes. My family, I know is definitely relieved, they experienced things that Tiger won't have to worry about experiencing, I feel bad because I was in denial for so long and put them through all the turmoil and pain that wasn't necessary. I know there is nothing I can do to change the past but I am doing something about changing the present and the future and I know for a fact everyone in my life is not only relieved but proud of me as well.
Tiger and I talked last night and he told me that there was no way in hell he was going to stay with me any longer if I didn't get my disorder under control, he couldn't take the stress and being in fear of not knowing when and if I was going to have another episode. He is very excited about me taking responsibility for myself and getting everything under control, he said he is still kind of scared because I am so mellow and don't get pissed nearly as easy as I used too, he doesn't know when and if I am going to have another episode and freak out.
I got my blood drawn today and the mother fucker hurt my arm. He said he had been doing phlebotomy for 10 years as he shoved the needle right into my arm. Fucking douche bag didn't even apologize, I covered my face with my other hand as tears started to build in my eyes, I was so pissed. He was a lucky bastard, if I wasn't medicated I would have gone off and most likely would've had to have been escorted out of the building but I bit my tongue. My mom was there with me and she said she could feel the pain when the guy drew my blood. I know I am going to have a bruise as my arm still hurts from this morning!!!!
I have never had this much blood on a cotton ball after getting my blood drawn...... mother fucker
Until Next Time SG...... *hugs and kisses*
I don't know the full story but well done
Its good they noticed, its good you have their support. When you don't have those things then its all so much harder. Believe me.
xx
It's good for evening moods and temperament. The standardized version is desirable.
In any case, I wish you the best and hope things work out well for you and your boyfriend.