sulia

Not sure what is going on with me today, I am depressed and tired, I don't have motivation to do anything I am almost thinking I am having one of my lows.

The weekend was ok just a bunch of laziness watching NCIS and a lot of junk food, I guess that is an ideal weekend for someone who just wants to get away mentally. Tiger got another call for a job out in LA this time doing transportation, at least he is getting some income coming in, this makes him and I both happy but I think him getting that phone call is what made my mood drastically change from being happy to depressed? not quite sure. The reason I say this is because he stays at my house 4 days out of the week and what I have noticed is if this gets changed in anyway my mood swings change, I really do hate it

As I was saying in my last blog it has been really hard for me to sleep lately and I am starting to notice that I am having off the wall dreams, the night before last I had a dream about my ex I am not sure why as I don't talk to him and then today I was thinking heavily about him, maybe it's my bipolar? I have no idea what is going on inside, I told my friend I was really depressed today so she invited me over for a couple of hours just to hang out, I am going to head over there around 6 I think but first I am going to relax in the bathtub.

If I feel up to it I will log on later on tonight.