sulia

Today was a pretty busy day at work only because I was playing catch up, I had to get the 1099's done for my boss and plus I was being pulled in so many different directions at work I got behind on some stuff.

Today Tiger is out in LA working on a commercial for Magic Mountain, which is cool, hopefully he will be able to get back into the film industry and make some great money like he did a while ago, I think it would be awesome. We had a little talk yesterday about a couple of things, mainly to do with me being thick headed and his being more attentive I think it went pretty well but we will see how things are as the weeks progress.

From what I have noticed about myself is I think to much and the more I think the more I come up with false scenarios in my head. I hate it when that happens because it always gets me into trouble, perhaps it's my bipolar or maybe just me being paranoid or even sabotaging things around me? I am always trying to better myself in one way or another to prevent any un-necessary conflicts but every time I try it blows up in my face and then I am left confused about what happened. Perhaps I need therapy? better medication? swift kick in the ass? I have no idea, all I know is I want to be able to live a normal life and re-act to situations in a rational manner.

Just sharing my thoughts, hopefully I can get some advice?