Hello All....
Happy Monday, I say this because I don't have to go into work today
The weekend, as you know from my other blogs, was pretty damn shitty not knowing where my relationship is going to go
along with no being able to eat and all the tear shedding due to the stress of the situation. Well, since he has left I am able to sit and blog about everything that went on, I didn't want to do it while he was here only because I wanted to be able to sit and actually think about everything. As you know my truck ran out of gas on Friday, I was so consumed with the fact that I had an appointment on Sat. with a talent agency (turned out to be pointless), my truck had started acting funny as in not really moving when I stepped on the gas pedal, I told my b/f and he told me to put a fuel additive in the tank to help with the gunky stuff at the bottom of the tank. So, instead of going to the gas station first I was headed to the Auto Zone to get the additive, well, my truck died on the way there. I sent a text first saying help and that my truck had died, he called and asked where I was and if I needed him to come and help me, I told him let me talk to my brother first to see if he can so that my b/f wouldn't have to leave work. I called my brother but he was working on somethings for a client and said that we didn't have a gas can, I called my b/f back and he said he would be where I was with a gas can. When he got to where i was he looked pissed, he put the gas in my gas tank and told me to start my truck and said if my truck doesn't start then my truck has a problem and then right after said if my truck does start then I have the problem, well, my truck started he looked at me, walked to his car and left. I tried calling him, texting, everything; he had sent a text saying he was done and that he would come and get his shit later. Later came and it wasn't pretty, we fought, screamed, yelled, cried, you name it and it happened. He finally told me what was causing him to be so up tight and moody, he likes his freedom to be able to do whatever he wants whenever he wants like going out on rides and going to bike nights and hanging out, I told him he should have sat me down and talked to me instead of holding it in like he has been doing and he had told me that if he would have done that it would have just turned into a huge fight, although he was right he should have done it in a way that would have been civil instead of holding it in to where this happened. Before he left we decided to start the rekindle process and I had asked him if he looses his job the next day what does that mean for us, he told me he didn't know.
The reason I say this is because he lost a job before because a girl he was seeing wanted him to go to the doctors so she wouldn't have to go alone, well he did and ended up losing his job because he was taking too much time off without using sick time or vacation time. I actually needed help and he tried to point the finger at me and tell me I was like that other chick
, I told him that he didn't have to help me and that I would have found another means of help. I also told him it's not right to compare me to her because we are two different people and I actually needed help and not someone to sit with me at the doctors, I can do that shit on my own (well I should have told him that). He should not have compared me to her, period.
Anyways, I need to get going, I will finish all this up when I get back. Talk to you later SG!
Happy Monday, I say this because I don't have to go into work today
The weekend, as you know from my other blogs, was pretty damn shitty not knowing where my relationship is going to go
along with no being able to eat and all the tear shedding due to the stress of the situation. Well, since he has left I am able to sit and blog about everything that went on, I didn't want to do it while he was here only because I wanted to be able to sit and actually think about everything. As you know my truck ran out of gas on Friday, I was so consumed with the fact that I had an appointment on Sat. with a talent agency (turned out to be pointless), my truck had started acting funny as in not really moving when I stepped on the gas pedal, I told my b/f and he told me to put a fuel additive in the tank to help with the gunky stuff at the bottom of the tank. So, instead of going to the gas station first I was headed to the Auto Zone to get the additive, well, my truck died on the way there. I sent a text first saying help and that my truck had died, he called and asked where I was and if I needed him to come and help me, I told him let me talk to my brother first to see if he can so that my b/f wouldn't have to leave work. I called my brother but he was working on somethings for a client and said that we didn't have a gas can, I called my b/f back and he said he would be where I was with a gas can. When he got to where i was he looked pissed, he put the gas in my gas tank and told me to start my truck and said if my truck doesn't start then my truck has a problem and then right after said if my truck does start then I have the problem, well, my truck started he looked at me, walked to his car and left. I tried calling him, texting, everything; he had sent a text saying he was done and that he would come and get his shit later. Later came and it wasn't pretty, we fought, screamed, yelled, cried, you name it and it happened. He finally told me what was causing him to be so up tight and moody, he likes his freedom to be able to do whatever he wants whenever he wants like going out on rides and going to bike nights and hanging out, I told him he should have sat me down and talked to me instead of holding it in like he has been doing and he had told me that if he would have done that it would have just turned into a huge fight, although he was right he should have done it in a way that would have been civil instead of holding it in to where this happened. Before he left we decided to start the rekindle process and I had asked him if he looses his job the next day what does that mean for us, he told me he didn't know. The reason I say this is because he lost a job before because a girl he was seeing wanted him to go to the doctors so she wouldn't have to go alone, well he did and ended up losing his job because he was taking too much time off without using sick time or vacation time. I actually needed help and he tried to point the finger at me and tell me I was like that other chick
, I told him that he didn't have to help me and that I would have found another means of help. I also told him it's not right to compare me to her because we are two different people and I actually needed help and not someone to sit with me at the doctors, I can do that shit on my own (well I should have told him that). He should not have compared me to her, period. Anyways, I need to get going, I will finish all this up when I get back. Talk to you later SG!
dafranchise:
Damn, the biggest mistake someone can make is compare someone to someone else, if you want a guy's opinion let me know.... Hope things get better for you....